Sunday, December 23, 2012

u'r my sunshine


 i'm so glad that i've known u..
i'm so glad to  learn to love u..
i'm also glad that u always by my side..

now i'm glad that i love u..
i cant live wifout u..
u'r my sunshine...u'r always make me happy..
n when i'm feeling so down or so sad u always there to hear my problems
to hear my story,to hear me babling...

please dont leave me my dear
wifout u i dont what i'm going to do
i will be really lonely wifout u..

i really love u my dear 
promise dont leave me...


pelik..


yeah...dah habis dah assignment ak pasal blog ni...
yeah dah bley update blog dalam bahasa malaysia..hehehe
bfore this kena update dlm bahasa inggeris je...
tp best je ak rsa update dlm b.i...rasa mcm highclass gitu..hehehe

ok pe yg aku nk citer ni ialah ada 1 perkara yg memusykilkan aku...
citer ni dah lama dah jadi kat aku...
citer ni pun adik aku yg citer kat aku...
dah lama dah dea citer baru skang aku nak update..
ish lmbt betul aku ni an...hehehe

ok citernyer ialah ada makcik tu selalu bertanyakan aku kat adik aku...
means ada customer ayah aku selalu tanya psal aku kat adik aku...
n customer/makcik tu adalah mak kpd kwn aku...

as u all know..xtau la korg tau ke x...kalo xtau meh aku bagi tau..
dulu pas STPM aku slalu tolong ayah aku kat kedai
ayah aku adalah sorg peniaga yg memiliki sebuah kedai runcit
so makcik ni customer ayah aku n of course la dea kenal aku n selalu nmpk aku tolong ayah aku
dulu aku rapat gak la ngn anak dea...skang dah kurang sikit
mungkin sbb masing2 dah further study kot..

dulu xda la plak dea tegur aku msa ak tlong ayah aku dulu
skang ni aku pelik plak bila dea tnya psl aku kat adik aku..
adik aku citer slalu gak dea tnya psl aku tiap kali dea dtg kedai...
so skang ni aku agak pelik sbb apa dea tnya psl aku
sedangkan aku ngn anak dea dah x rpt pun...
huhuhuhu...pelik n terkejut sungguh aku rasa...

Friday, December 14, 2012

stress and feeling useless

hai guys and girls..today i would like to tell u all about my feelings..
today i feel really stress and little bit down n i almost cry...huhuhu
i am such a cry baby...hehehe
i dont care,because if u feel like to cry then spilt it out..
because after that u will feel really better...

from last week until this week i felt really stress and feel really down
i'm stress because a tones of work that ive to do and also to prepare for the final exam
the timetable also have already been out on student portal..huhuhu



another thing that make me feel down n stress because i feel like i'm useless
why am i saying like that?hurmmm because let it be a secret...
for those who read my previous entry will know what am i talking about...

errmm i dont know how long will my problem will be continue
because i always face the same problem since i'm in elementry school until now..
what i can do is just follow the flow..
and thanx to my hubby,u always there for me to listen to my problems and also my cry...hehehe
thanx for comforting me...


Monday, December 10, 2012

5 Jenis Lelaki Yang Anda Patut Putuskan Hubungan

1 – Lelaki yang sering mengucapkan kata sayang tetapi tidak mahu atau tidak bersedia untuk menjalinkan hubungan yang lebih serius walaupun anda sudah mengenalinya sudah bertahun2. Ini bermakna bahawa anda bakan orang yang dia inginkan & mungkin juga anda tiada dalam kamus hidupnya.

2 – Lelaki yang sentiasa menghubungi anda tanpa mengira waktu. Selalunya lelaki sebegini akan mengeluarkan kata-kata manis apabila dia sangat memerlukan anda. Tetapi, bila anda memerlukannya, dia langsung tidak muncul atau memberi banyak alasan untuk mengelakkan dari anda.

3 – Lelaki yang selalu mengajak anda keluar hanya sebagai teman tapi mesra. Kemana saja anda berdua. Ibarat merpati sejoli la konon pd pandangan orang. Malangnya hati lelaki tu tak terdetik langsung untuk mengisi anda dalam ruang hatinya yang dah lama kosong. Jangan buang masa dengan lelaki cenggitu.

4 – Lelaki yang sudah mempunyai kekasih, tapi tetap mahukan anda (tamak betul). Selalunya lelaki macam ini mempunyai ramai awek tapi sekadar memenuhi nafsunya.

5 – Lelaki yang anggp dirinya sentiasa betul. Pandangan atau setiap perkara yang anda buat salah pada mata atau pandangan dia. Selalunya kalau menjalinkan hubungan dengan lelaki macam ini, anda akan sering dimarah atau ditengking kononnya anda saja yang bersalah dalam sesuatu hal (ego la tu), hal kecik pun nak dibesarkan.

same...nothing was change


ermmm pe maksud tajuk entry aku tu...
ni la aku nak citerkan...
if u all wannna read thanx...if dont just close this blog ok..
thanx for those who wanna read it...

what is same n nothing was change?
its my life...my social life...
since i'm in high school until i'm in U now
i think my social life never change...it remain constant

why i said like that?
because i'm always be an outsider among my friends..
i dont know why i'm becoming like that..
huhuhuhu

ermmm maybe its my own mistake
that it become like this cause i dont know how to cope wif them
n maybe i'm not as fun as them or maybe i'm too serious
or maybe i'm  lack of social skill...i dont know how to be friends wif others..
ermm its true its my fault..

at first i feel little bit sad cause i'm always feel like i'm being an outsider
later it feels like i'm used to it..
maybe this is the way my life is that is it looks like i've alot of friends
but in reality is i dont know whether i've  friends or not..

but the truth is i'm grateful to meet those people which who is being my friends
at least in my life i've friends although i feel lonely...
thanx to them at least i can be happy and have fun wif them..
although after that maybe i'll be forgotten..

i'm not sad wif my life n my situation now
n i know its my fault but i dont know how to fix it
so i just  go wif the flow n dont know how long it will become like this..

thanx to u all,i've a great time together wif u all...
luv u all n don't forget me okay because i've never forget u all...




Thursday, November 29, 2012

feel like i wanna to run away

why the title is like that?
it is because i feel suffocate inside my own room
why?
ermm just keep it as a secret..

i've thought a very good solution about my problem
but i'm afraid to make my plan real..
there so many heart will involve in this plan..
but i think this plan is the best solution n it benefits for both parties..
but i still dont know how to speak with them about my plan..

however i'm still determined to continue my plan
i think they all will be agree with it..
if all of them want to talk bad about me on twitter
let it be
as long as i'm happy with the future situation..
i think all of them will agree with my plan because they are the most people that will happy in the end
i just need a perfect time to tell them about this matter...

ok thats all for today i'm mumbling about what i feel
thanx for reading it...


Tuesday, November 27, 2012

farewell my dear baby

hai girls n guys...
i am really sad and upset rite now
it is because i lost my little baby...coco
he died this morning...

i am really sad bcoz i am not able to see him for the last time..
i really love him..
i raise him from he was a little kitten...
i fed him,slept with him n played with him..
he was so close with me...

now he's gone and i am unable to see him for the last time
i'm crying really hard yesterday when my sis called me to inform that he in his last hour to breath..
and 7 o'clock i got a message that he was gone now..
i was really upset coz i cant see him anymore..
this weekend i plan to go back home..
but now when i get back home i cant see him anymore..

goodbye my little coco..we had really great time together...
and i will never forget u n i love u my dear baby...


in memory coco :2010-2012







 

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Birthday Date Meanings

wanna see what u'r birthday date means??
lets check it out here...have fun..

Is your birthday day 1 of the month?
Your Life
You are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested in something,everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But if you learn to be more patient and complete what you have started, you will be successful
inlife.
Your Love
You believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn more about the person. Vise versa, people who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your expression. Try not to
end a relationship in a quarrel.
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Is your birthday day 2 of the month?
Your Life
You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from the outside world. You are clever and profound so there's a slight
chance for self-control problem.
Your Love
Your love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented with your unrequited love. Your are a romantic and loyal lover.
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Is your birthday day 3 of the month?
Your Life
Although you are innocent and romantic but your expression often mislead others that you are an active, fun loving kid. Because of your double personality, it's hard for others to really know the real you. You are careful and patient.
Your Love
Your love is the greatest which often surprises others. No one can bring you
to light when you are in love. Your confidence
might lead you to the track your parents disagree.
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Is your birthday day 4 of the month?
Your Life
You usually think before acting which makes your life quite easy. But you often are the one who give yourself a hard time by being paranoid. People might not truly understand you but you are really nice to be around.
You are cheerful and friendly.
Your Love
Still water runs deep, that's what you are. You always surprise others with your new character when you are in love. Your love trap often comes unexpectedly and your love life is full of surprises.
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Is your birthday day 5 of the month?
Your Life
Although you are on the quiet side, but you enjoy excitement and changes.Routine is something you cannot stand. Because of your extreme confidence,you hardly ask others for opinion. You believe in leading your own life, and you have got the gift in doing so.
Your Love
Nothing can stop you from making progress in your love life. Once you are in love, you feel the ownership of your lover. A third party can only makes your jealousy becomes worse.
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Is your birthday day 6 of the month?
Your Life
You are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme that people
find you nosey. Your hidden courage and dedication often surprise others.
Your imagination is extremely unique.
Your Love
Your love life is on the smooth track because it grows from friendship.Although you may not make a sweet lover but your sincerity bring happiness to your couple.
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Is your birthday day 7 of the month?
Your Life
You are sensitive to changes around you but your feeling is hardly
expressed. You hate exaggerations. Under your quiet personality, you
are
rather stubborn and self-centered. These qualities are the force behind
your
extreme persistence.
Your Love
You have enormous courage to please your lover. Your relationship often
progress quickly.
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Is your birthday day 8 of the month?
Your Life
You have pleasant and friendly personality. People look u to your wit
and
imagination. You are unpredictable and hardly complete what you
started,
which sometimes create negative impact to people around you.
Your Love
Falling in love becomes your routine. Most of the time you are lucky.
You
fascinate people with good taste but you never have enough with one.
Although your love progresses very fast, it never lasts.
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Is your birthday day 9 of the month?

your Life
You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't
know
how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care
what
they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get
a
chance to learn about your pleasant personality.
Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is
remarkable
but sometimes you are too fast to follow.
Your Love
You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy
over
and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the
feeling
of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck
with
children. You Will be Happy Always with u r Love Marraige. and she
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Is your birthday day 10 of the month?
Your Life
You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to be a
renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame and honor is
near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You are good in
implementing your imagination and share it with
others. You are always well dressed.
Your Love
You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feel
like
you own the person you fall in love with and that often blows your
relationship.
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Is your birthday day 11 of the month?

Your Life
You are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualities and
some
even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible and adaptable.
You
are remarkably kind and moral person.
Your Love
You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Your lover
will
always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You will always be happy
to
hand around the one you love.
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Is your birthday day 12 of the month?
Your Life
You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and
do
not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper.
Your Love
You are willing to start off in one-sided love affairs because you
strongly
believe that you will eventually win his/her heart. On the other hand,
once
you are together, you always want to do things your way, which is often
the
fire starter. You usually run in and out of love quickly.
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Is your birthday day 13 of the month?
Your Life
You are sincere and easy going. Flattering and charming around are not
your
style. You care so much for freedom that often leads you to the
difficult
path. Because of your sincerity, most people find you easy to be around
although you are sometimes too straightforward.
Your Love
Your gentleness, care and sincerity make you an attractive person.
Eventhough you don't intend to be charming, but you naturally are,
especially in the eyes of opposite sex.
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Is your birthday day 14 of the month?
Your Life
You are so confident that sometimes you forget about the people around
you.
If you have to be in one of the two teams, you will choose to be in the
winning team. On the other hand, you are kind and caring but above all,
you
care for your own benefits. Your imagination is
unique and often gets implemented shortly after it comes across.
Your Love
You will not get soft with the one you don't really like, no matter how
hard
he/she tries. But once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no
getting back.
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Is your birthday day 15 of the month?
Your Life
You are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From the
outside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true self is
strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you
fail to convince someone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your
temper shows.
Your Love
You are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long.
This
is why you hardly win a decent relationship.
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Is your birthday day 16 of the month?
Your Life
You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your
heart.
Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people
say
about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious
and a
dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make
your dream comes true.
Your Love
You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in
age
and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist
sight
is not your style.
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Is your birthday day 17 of the month?
Your Life
You neither want to be interfered nor have the desire to mess with
others'
life. But you are friendly and occasionally a party animal. You are
always
in a circle of friends. You often do things in your own way that
occasionally go beyond the acceptable limit. People may find you
childish
and not very attractive in that sense.
Your Love
Your fun-loving character attracts opposite sex. Many of those are
great.You
often find yourself trapped among a few great guys while you have to
choose
only one.
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Is your birthday day 18 of the month?
Your Life
At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually
you are
cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only
in
good mood. One the other hand, when you are moody, no one would dare to
be
around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some
find
you hard to be around.
Your Love
You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much
you
like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so your love
affairs
often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity
makes you very attractive.
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Is your birthday day 19 of the month?
Your Life
You are great in managing everything in your life and this is how you
gain
respect from others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feel that
you
are better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead you to the
wrong
path. You are a free bird and want to lead your
own life.
Your Love
You love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love,
nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soon
after
that, you will make up in a way that surprises others.
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Is your birthday day 20 of the month?
Your Life
You are prudent, circumspect and take things seriously. Before you make
any
move, you will think of a few alternatives that might take a while. You
are
patient, imaginative and target oriented. You value friendship more
than
anything else.
Your Love
You usually study your partner carefully before making any move. You
never
demand anything beyond the natural quality of that person. Your
sincerity
doesn't bring excitement in your love life but it brings deeply grown
relationship.
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Is your birthday day 21 of the month?
Your Life
You are curious and a true follower. You can please someone so much
that it
seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide your
disagreement
under your smiling face. This is a charming quality of yours.
Your Love
You are quite unlucky in love. You are loved by someone you don't like
while
your dream man is so far away. Your love life is occasionally under
turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clear view of the guy in your
heart.
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Is your birthday day 22 of the month?
Your Life
You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to
you
for your capability and confidence although they find you quite
stubborn.
You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming
individual.
Your Love
You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone.
Whom
you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you
won't
let them get away without having hard time.
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Is your birthday day 23 of the month?
Your Life
You never live your life in the way others want you to. You are an
independent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You are
ready to
face with the result of your decision. You are usually the one your
friends
count on.
Your Love
Because you love excitements, you occasionally get involved in
forbidden
love affairs. You may fall in love with a married person and no one can
stop
you from making progress. You are very charming, although you might not
realize it.
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Is your birthday day 24 of the month?
Your Life
You are very optimistic and that's why you always enjoy life. You are
gifted
in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you. You'll be the
first
they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out.
Your Love
Sometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, not
that you
really like that person. You always be seen as a sweet couple but you
can't
really get over your love ones from past. Your partner is usually crazy
about you because you are remarkably charming and
romantic.
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Is your birthday day 25 of the month?
Your Life
You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal.
You
always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will
eventually bring you success.
Your Love
You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value your love
one
more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have
potential
to get married young.
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Is your birthday day 26 of the month?
Your Life
You are always curious and responsive to changes. Routine life is not
the
way you choose to live. Travelling is your favorite hobby because
excitement
is what you are after.
Your Love
You will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes
and
goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be
looking
around for the next one.
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Is your birthday day 27 of the month?
Your Life
You are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheeks even
when
the matter is not that bad. This might be the result from being to
pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a
kind
loving person.
Your Love
You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date
may
be. You are emanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.
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Is your birthday day 28 of the month?
Your Life
You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own
ability.
This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If
you
try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to
see
things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever.
Your Love
You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in
your
heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out
before
seeing any progress in love.
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Is your birthday day 29 of the month?
Your Life
You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not
your
interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination. You often
feel
tired of things and people around you.
Your Love
You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking
into
his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of
fights
between you and your lover.
Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination.
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Is your birthday day 30 of the month?
Your Life
You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and
fun
to be with. Though you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn,
but
over all, they love your qualities.
Your Love
You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to
treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding
proposal
or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are
certainly
confident which might take ages.
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Is your birthday day 31 of the month?
Your Life
Your emotion is hard to predict. You can be sad this minute and happy
in the
next. People might find it difficult to follow your emotion and
understand
you. You tend to take things seriously.
Your Love
You take your time to study a person before falling in love. Once you
decide
that he or she is the one, no one can stop you from making progress,
even
your partner.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

my sister's wedding

hai guys and girls...hope u all have a nice and fine day...
based on the title..i guess u all know what i want to talk about..hehehe
ok,on 10/11/2012 my older sister was married...
my sister married at age 27 and her husband is 1 year older than her..

i let the pictures tell the story...
i hope my sister and her husband will live happily forever...





Wednesday, October 3, 2012

outing wif my friends

hai guys n girls...
yesterday my friends n i were hangout...
just 5 of us only which is me,syida,shud,nurul n zihah...
just to have fun n try to know our new place here.
we were just round around shah alam only...
step by step...after shah alam then we go to k.l later...hehehe
we go out by car...we rent it for half day...
the price for the rent car is ok and we were afford to pay it...

in shah alam we just go around the city..
we go shopping at giant hypermarket n walk around PKNS...
in PKNS there were held a PC fair n i bought a MP3 for my self...hehehe
then we go to OLE-OLE n we have fun by karaoke...
after karaoke we play games at the arked...
after that we just go home...

we were having so much fun..
10 o'clock we arrive at home...
thanx to my beloved friends..next time we're hangout again...

here some pics that we take...






Monday, September 24, 2012

updating blog as my assignment

assalammualaikum n hai guys n girls...
hope u all fine n happy always...
i'm here fine n sometime happy n sometimequite not happy..
why??because of my new life as a student....hehehehe..

don't feel weird because i'm using fully engslish to write this blog
this is because i got an assignment that is to update my blog until 29/11
and that assignment i must do fully in english so i'm sorry if my english is very bad...huhuhuhu

back to my task that is to update this blog almost everyday in english
i feel so uneasy to write this blog in english but what to do its an order..huhuhuhu
this assignment is for subject MGT 417 that is INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY IN BUSINESS..
so to those who read my blog please don't make fun of me because of my broken english..huhuhu
ok thats all that i want to tell u..
bye....

Saturday, September 8, 2012

i am a student of UiTM Puncak Alam

assalammualaikum semua..
sihat x?aku x berapa sihat ni...demam sikit..
penangan MDS UiTM Puncak Alam...huhuhuhu
yes,skang ak dah jadi student kat sana...
selama 3 tahun la ak duk kat sana..
wat degree in business...

alhamdulillah berjaya gak ak jejak kaki kat universiti
syukur sangat2 n seronok pun ada..
tapi sedih pun ada gak...ye la selama 20 tahun aku duk kat umah
then tiba masa keluar dari umah..sedey kot...
nak nanges la masa parents aku nak balik pas antar aku kat sini..
seminggu kat sini homesick la gak..
tapi saje xnk tepon family...kalo tepon mesti ak nanges2 dengar suara diorag
ckp sekejap ngn mak aku kat tepon pun dah nak nanges..ni kan plak kalo ckp lelama...huhuhu

ok sepanjang seminggu MDS kat uitm tu...terseksa gak la zahir ngn batin aku...
MDS tu kira minggu orientasi la..
yela aku ni kira anak manja la gak...yela 20 tahun best je duk umah an
sampai sini mcm kena dera pun ada..huhuhu
program habis pun kul 12 pagi...balik tu baru la mandi...mandi pun mandi air sejuk plak tu..
habis je MDS terus ak demam...huhuhu
ye la dah 7 tahun ak x demam,bila dah kena mnggu orientasi yg mcm tu n ak push body ak smpai limit..
memang demam la an...huhuhu
terseksa pun byk info n pengalaman aku dapat...yg penting minggu terseksa dah habis..hehehe

berciter pasal hostel kat uitm puncak alam...hmm memang the best la...
tempat tinggal ak kat sini kira apartmen...1 rumah ada 4 bilik...1 bilik 2 org ley duduk..
ada bilik air sendiri,ruang tamu tapi xda dapur la...
memang selesa bagi aku la...ye la xyah berebut sgt nak guna bilik air...hehehe
ok smpai arini ak xda roomate lg...mna dea gi ak xtau...dea xnk gi mnggu orientasi kot...huhuhu
housemate ak sume ok je..sorg je sebaya ngn aku...yg len sume muda setahun..ye la dorg dak2 asasi ngn matriks...then dorg panggil aku kakak lak tu...
aiyoo dak2 ni muda setahun je kot...xyah la kakak sgt...rasa tua plak aku...huhuhu
dah la aku ni paling kecik antara dorg sume..so kakak comel la gitu...hehehe
perasan....

perasaan jadi student U...seronok,teruja,takut...sumenyer ada la...bercampur2..
hope ak dpt sesuaikn diri kat sana dgn sgt pantas..hehehe
so wish me luck k...

Monday, August 20, 2012

tak tau nak kata apa?

fast growing relationship??
ak tau hubungan kitorg berkembang sgt cepat
tapi ak x regret pun benda tu malah ak suka
sbb ak tau ak betul2 sygkan dea

tapi fast growing relationship pun ada buruknyer gak
kalo cpt mesra,cpt la jgk gaduhnyer an...
mungkin hubungan kitorg dah masuk ke fasa mendatar or worse skang menurun
lately ni ad je bnda yg akan kitorg argue
pas baek satu bnda akan argue satu bnda lain plak
hmm sume ni mula bila ak mula bz semnggu before raya ni...

lagipun dea pun dah mula change
ak rsa dea bukan dea yg dulu la
ak rindu dea yg dulu...
xkn la ak mention dea x bz n duk umah je tu pun dea nk terasa sampai skang
sampai nk change siapa dea yg sebenar..

aku xtau mana hilangnyer degil dea dulu, mnja dea, dea yg xkn terima prkataan no dari ak...
ak rindu sume tu...asal lama sgt sume tu hilang
dea kata sementara je...tp smpai skang ak x jumpa lg tu sume...
sedey je...even skang pun dea x paham lg ak mcm mna...

ak ni ckp je marah n bengang n nk wat tu n nk wat ni
tapi kat ati xnk pun wat tu sume
tu pun dea still x paham lg...hmm salah ak ke sume ni happen?
kalo salah ak...ak akan try to fix it
ak rindu dea yg dulu...huhuhu

Saturday, July 21, 2012

first day ramadhan

setelah dah lama ak x mengalirkan air mata,pada 1 ramadhan ari ni
air mata ak tertumpah juaga
dugaan ramadhan pertama ni ak rasa ak telah gagal lalui cbaran itu dengan penuh kesabaran
dan akhirnyer aku mampu nangis je...

iye aku tau ak x sepandai ko yg dah berjaya menggenggam segulung ijazah dgn cemerlangnyer
aku x sepandai ko yg berjaya masuk ke universiti pilihan dgn course yg hmpir dgn course idaman ko
tapi boley x ko tolong berbangga sedikit dgn pncapaian ak yg berjaya menjejakkan kaki ke menara gading
w/pun bukan dgn course pilihan...sejak keputusan upu diumumkan xda sepatah ucapan tahniah keluar dari mulut ko...

sekarang ko cuba nak bagitau sume org yg aku ni hanya dpt tmpat kat U tu disebabkan simpati
ko nak sume org pandang rendah kat aku sebab pencapaian ak yg mcm tu
ko suka la org fikir yg aku ni memang patut masuk sana sebab simpati n dgn course yg org kata 'lelong'
pe motif ko wat mcm tu??
x cukup lagi ke perhatian yg ko dapat dari sume orang...sejak mula ko masuk matrik smpai ko dah dpt ijazah yg sume org banggakan tu...dan sejak mula semua org tau ko sakit sume perhatian diberi kat ko..
x cukup lagi ke semua tu...
jangan takut la w/pun ak berjaya dpt ijazah pun ko akan tetap mnjadi kesayangan semua orang..
diorang xkn pandang aku pun...diorang akan  sentiasa beri perhatian kat ko je lebey2 lgi ngn keadaan ko yg sakit skang

aku xtau la knp ko macam ni...xda sekelumit ke rasa bangga dgn aku..
aku sentiasa pandang tinggi ko..dari mula ko sekolah sampai sekarang...
jangan la jadikan alasan yg ko sakit tu untk minta simpati...
aku dah letey ngn perangai ko yg makin besar kepala sejak sakit ni....yela pe ko ckp sume betul
orang laen ckp sume salah...

aku mohon jangan msuk campur urusan aku...aku x pernah pun masuk campur urusan ko n ak xpernah pun mintak tolong apa2 dari ko...
urusan aku dgn org2 kat sana biar aku uruskan..aku suka ke x dorg xda kena mengena ngn ko
orang2 kat sana dah memang suka ko sngat2 ko dah kira bertuah...jangan la nak pertikaikan aku lagi..
jangan ko jawab apa2 pasal aku bagi pihak aku kalo dorg tanya...aku bley jwb sndiri...
terima kasih atas prhatian ko selama ni..pas ni tolong jgn masuk campur...

bulan ramadhan ni aku diuji lagi dgn sikap ko...ak harap ak akan diberi kesabaran yg tinggi utk menghadapi ko sehingga la ak keluar dari sini...aku sentiasa harapkan ko berjaya,bahagia dan sembuh...
boleh tak ko harapkan aku berjaya dan bangga dgn aku..

semoga aku dapat lalui bulan ramadhan ni dgn sabar yg tinggi...AMIN...


Saturday, June 9, 2012

cuba jadi kuat



SEDIH..itu la pe yg aku rasa skang
tapi aku xnak tnjukkn kat depan family aku
semua orang dalam umah ni dah menangis dah disebabkn dea
aku je belum menangis lagi sebab dea
kalo diorang tgk aku nanges gak
sapa nak tunjukkn semangat yg kuat depan diorang
bukan aku xda perasaan atau x kisah 
tapi aku sebenarnyer nak tunjukkn kepada semua yg aku kuat hadapi berita ini..
sebenarnyer aku sgt terasa n sedey gak ngn berita n keadaan yg terjadi sekarang ni
byk kali aku tahan air mata aku daripada jatuh n berjaya w/pun ada rasa sebak
aku paham sume perasaan ahli keluarga aku yg susah nk hadapi keadaan ni
tapi kiter sume tau setiap masalah ada penyelesaiannyer
kiter cuma kena jadi kuat n minta tolong pada yang kat ATAS je
hope sumenyer akan baik n pulih seperti dulu..
aku akan terus jadi kuat w/pun air mata aku mengalir gak...
tapi aku akan pastikan air mata ni mengalir bukan di depan family aku..

#aku xtau sampai bila aku boley tahan diri dari nanges kenangkan keadaan ni..

Sunday, May 20, 2012

i need u


seperti tertera pada tajuk di atas...
saya memang perlukan awak..
kalo awak xda la dalam hidup saya..saya xtau nak cari sapa kalo saya ada masalah
awak la pengubat luka saya..
awak an tau saya ni dah la x ramai kwn
kwn pun ada berapa orang je
ley kira ngn jari..tu pun x dpt nak senang an ati saya
awak je yg selalu ceriakn saya,ada bila saya perlukan
so kalo awak xda..sunyi la hidup saya...
so sentiasa ye ada kat sisi saya n jangan tinggalkan saya yer...
saya sayang kat awak auw

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

nama bakal anak perempuan

dear my future husband

one day nanti kalo kiter dapat baby girl an syg nak kasi nama anak kiter qairina marissa or qasrina maisara..
best x nama ni??sayang suka auw nama ni..unik sgt..kalo dpt twins kiter guna je la dua2 nama ni..
xpun kalo dpt lagi seorang baby girl bley guna nama tu gak..hmm sbb tu la syg prepare dua nama..

hmm utk baby boy plak abang je la kasi nama eh...coz anak lelaki an so better la abang bagi nama..
yela hero abang n kwn abg nnt an..nama yg abang nak bagi mesti yg best2 auw n mesti ada makna yg baek2 ok..

nama anak perempuan kiter tu pun syg dah tgk dah maknanyer..
qairina maksudnyer kebaikan n marissa maksudnyer seorang yg bersopan santun
qasrina pulak maksudnyer istana n maisara maksudnyer ketenangan,nyaman..
ok an makna nama tu..

ini la nama baby girls yg sayang nak letak kat anak2 perempuan kiter nanti
hope anak2 perempuan kiter akan comel2 n peribadi mereka seindah maksud nama2 mereka
hope impian syg ni tercapai..
AMIN..

#hmm impian aku kepada bakal suami aku 6 or 7 tahun akan datang...


Friday, May 11, 2012

ok aku ngaku aku jahat

bila diselidik balik n pas berbincang n bercakap ngn kwn aku
aku dah dapat figure out beberapa kejahatan yg pernah aku wat
n bila pikir2 balik memang aku rasa perbuatan aku tu agak melampau la..huhuhu

benda melampau pertama yg aku wat ialah
pada hari lahir kawan aku,aku x wish kat dea
bukan aku x ingat but aku just saje je nk tundakan ucapan b'day tu sok harinyer atas alasan yg tertentu
last2 dah lepas 7 hari baru aku wish kat dea..huhuhu
dea punyer la bengang ngn aku...hmm x sangka plak dea marah ngn aku..huhuhu
jahat gak aku ni...ala masa b'day aku pun dea wish lmbt gak..huhuhu
tapi x selambat aku..huhuhu..ish2 kejam2...

benda melampau kedua yg aku wat
hmm ni memang agak jahat kot
kalo aku hangout ngn kawan2 aku n tiba time borak2
kalo topik yg kwn aku citer tu x best or bosan aku men hp ak or men msj spnjang kwn aku tu citer
hmm aku dgr citer dea but x 100% la..huhuhuhu
ada sekali aku kuar ngn kwn aku,whole day kuar ngn dea aku texting
sampai nk tgk wyg pun aku texting smpai dea tegur aku coz dah bengang sgt..huhuhu

hmm wat masa ni tu je la yg aku ingat benda jahat yg aku wat
hmm kalo ada yang laen aku belum ingat lagi
kalo ada sesapa di antara kawan aku yg baca entry ni n pernah terasa aku wat sumthing melampau
bagi la tau aku through komen ni eh
hmm saje nak tau n nak perbaiki diri..

aku nak minta maaf la diatas perbuatan melampau yg aku pernah wat ni
perkara ni kadang2 berlaku tanpa aku sedar..hmm kadang2 aku sedar aku wat benda tu
so tolong la maafkan manusia biasa  yg selalu wat silap ni yer...

Sunday, May 6, 2012

love my supporting parents

as salam sume kengkawan kat sini..
hmm khabar baek kah anda sume??
aku sihat2 je n happy2 je..

just nk citer pasal betapa supportingnyer parents aku
n aku sayang n appreciate sgt2 sifat supporting dorang tu
apa yg diorang support ak yg ak appreciate sgt ialah diorang sgt2 percayakan aku
n diorang sgt supporting kalo ak kuar jejalan n balik umah agak lambat..

hmm ak terharu sgt yg diorang percaya kat aku 100% bila bab2 kuar hangout ngn kwn2 ni
n ak xkn sekali-kali merosakkan kepercayaan yg diberi tu
ye la sekali rosak kepercayaan tu hmm nth2 smpai bila2 pun ak x ley kuar agaknyer..
sbb tu la ak suka n senang kalo sume kwn2 ak mak n ayah aku kenal..
bila dorang dah kenal dorang xda la risau sgt n ak pun xda la takut sgt nk balik umah lelambat ni
lagipun ak kuar ngn kwn2 yg ak betul2 percaya n kenal je utk kuar smpai lewat mlm ni

dulu2 masa muda2 dulu kalo ak kuar pada siang hari sblum kul 6 mesti ak make sure ak dah balik
but skang bila dah cecah 19 n 20 ni...hmm slagi blum kul 7 slagi tu la x balik lg..
dulu2 ak takut parents ak bising kalo balik lelambat but skang ni ok je coz diorang pun rilex je..
bukan ak amik kesempatan eh..just mnggunakan kepercayaan yg diberi je..

dulu2 jarang kuar mlm...kalo kuar pun kul 10 dah balik dah
skang ni kalo kuar mlm slagi x kul 11,slagi tu la x balik lg..
hehehe...nakal gak ak ni..
masa b'day ak lagi dahsyat....sehari suntuk ak kuar..
siang ak kuar umah dari kul 12.30...balik kul 7..kul 8 kuar balik..kul 12.30 a.m baru balik
hmm celebrate sakan la hari tu...letey memang letay..but fun kot...hehehe
sok tu parents ak ok je coz diorang tau ak kuar ngn sapa...

hmm kadang2 ak tgk kwn2 ak parents diorang akan kol kalo diorang balik lmbt
n ak akan rasa wah caringnyer parents diorang..parents ak x penah pun kol ak kalo ak balik lmbt..
even belum smpai umah kul 1 pagi pun diorang x kol...huhuhu..
xpa itu tandanyer diorang percayakan ak...so kena guna sebaiknyer...
hmm bila dah 20 ni je selalu la kuar mlm...dulu2 jarang n x pernah lngsung..

hmm so ak syg ngn parents ak yg sgt supporting n sgt percayakan aku
susah nk cari parents mcm parents ak..
kebebasan yg diorang bagi ni pun ad batasnyer n ak sentiasa ingat akan batasan tu

Monday, April 23, 2012

tak semestinyer

as salam sume...selamat bertemu kembali...(entah bila kiter bertemu an)huhuhuhu..
hmm korang sume sihat x??ak sihat je..kalo x sihat ak xda la update blog ni an..huhuhu
hmm tgh pagi2 buta ni tetiba rasa nak update bnda yg dah lama ak pikir nk tulis
tapi xtau la knp x tertulis-tulis sebelum ni...huhuhu

aku nk bagitau pe yg ak rasa n ak pikir
lama gak la ak pikir benda ni...benda apa??
hmm ni la nak citer ni...

dulu2 ak selalu pikir or rasa yg kalo kiter ada persamaan ngn orang kiter suka msti best an..
kira mcm kiter mcm pasangan yg secocok la..
yela citarasa muzik sama,citarasa filem sama n cara berfikir hampir sama...
hmm rasa mcm wah secocoknyer kalo ak couple ngn dea..
yela almost sume bnda yg ak suka,dea suka...n pndpt kitorang sentiasa sama je...
mcm best je mcm tu an...

but sebenarnye seseorang yg byk prsamaan ngn kiter or kbetulan ada persamaan ngn kiter
x semestinyer akan bersama ngn kiter or menjadi jodoh kiter
memang la rasa seronok bila org yg kiter suka mmpunyai persamaan ngn kiter
but itu sume bukan la alasan kukuh yg dea akan suka kat kiter or jadi teman kiter
so kat sini baru ak sedar yg kiter x ley mengharap sgt..
jgn berangan terlalu tinggi,bila jatuh sakit sgt auw...huhuhu

so org yg byk perbezaan ngn kiter x semestinyer bukan jodoh kiter
mungkin perbezaan itu akan mmbuat an kiter byk bergado
but dgn perbezaan itu la kiter saling melengkapi..
then lama2 kiter bley terima perbezaan itu dengan hati yg terbuka

hmm dalam dunia ni byk benda yg x terjangka..
pe yg kiter rancang n harap kadang x jadi nyata
sebaliknyer pulak yg jadi..sama ada terjadi bnda baek or x je
sumenyer dah ketentuanNYA...

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

JUJUR

as salam n hai sume...
hope korang sume sihat2 belaka2..
aku kat sini sihat sgt2..hmm happy2 je..
hehehehe

hmm aku nak citer pasal bersikap jujur..
ceewaahh mcm la ak ni jujur sgt an..
ak actually nk citer jujur dari sudut pndangan aku..
kalo ad sesapa x stuju,bley je kiter jlnkn sesi berdebat..
hmm best gak debat2 ni..tp xnk la smpai gado2 ok..

hmm bersikap jujur pada aku bley selesaikn masalah tp juga bley bawa masalah..
tapi bila aku meningkat dewasa ni(hmm dah 20 tahun an dewasa la tu)
ak rasa byk masalah bley selesai kalo kiter jujur
terutama masalah hati dan perasaan ni
hmm ak xnk jadi mcm dulu..sbb x jujur aku sndiri yg sakit ati an
kalo awal2 bagitau msti x sakit sgt ati ni
mula2 memang la sakit tapi lama2 ok la an..huhuhu

so skang ni kalo ada pape masalah psl hati aku n hati orang ni aku jujur je la
bagitau je pe yg ak rasa sbnarnyer,suka ke x an..
kang men teka teki lagi mcm2 hal plak timbul nanti
so terus terang cpt2 lagi bagus..hehehehe

tapi ad gak perkara yg xley selesai kalo kiter jujur
n kalo jujur nanti bley mengundang sakit ati org n x pasal2 bergado
kalo org tu jenis open minded ok la..tapi kalo jenis yg close minded
mau dea basuh kiter balik coz xdpt terima kenytaan jujur dari kiter pasal dea
so sbb tu la ada je bnda2 yg aku sorokkn dari kwn2 aku...n x bgatau dorang..
tapi aku harap gak yg kwn2 aku jujur ngn aku...bagitau pe salah aku n pe yg dorg x suka pasal aku..
hope ad la yg nak wat mcm tu..aku janji ak akan open minded..
kalo ak x stuju ngn kenyataan jujur tu ak akan terang an betul2..
ak x marah n xkn tinggikn suara pun..hehehe

so bagi aku jujur ni penting just kiter kena pndai la bila kiter nak jujur n x..
ak x marah n x sakit ati pun kalo ad org x jujur n berlakon depan aku..
coz ak tau sume manusia mcm tu n ad sebab dea wat mcm tu..
cuma dlm beberapa perkara tolong la bersikap jujur terutama dlm relationship..
hmm tu je la pe ak rasa..w/pun kadang2 aku pun x jujur gak...huhuhu
tapi dlm relationship aku cb sedaya upaya untuk jujur ok..
hehehehe..

Thursday, April 5, 2012

xtau nk letak tajuk ape...hehehe

as salam sume..hari ni nak citer sumthing...tp ak xtau nk letak tjuk pe..hehehe
ari ni an ak tgk2 la post lama2 aku..hmm nostalgia betul
ada rasa nk ketawa,sdey,malu n trtnya2..hehehe


hmm sebenarnyer ak nk update blog aku ni semalam
tapi ada masalah yg mengganggu kepala otak aku
nth dak mana yg msj aku smlm dgn mmperkenalkn diri dea 'ejo'
aku memang x ingt langsung kat dak ni
ye la knl through fone je an n jumpa pun x pernah
memang x ingt langsung la an
yg lagi brtmbah sakit kepala aku siap bersyg,abg plak ngn aku
ish tolong la...aku baca text dea pun nk muntah aku rasa..last2 ak ingt dak ni..
dak t'ganu yg suka aku coz akunyer rupa n suara mirip ex dea...huhuhu seram...
langkah yg aku ambil off hp n x layan dea la...hehehe

aku ni kalo org yg ak knl n kata suka ak through hp je or through fb ni memang ak x caya
ye la bukannyer kenal kiter sgt an..tetiba je suka..memang tipu la tu..
so org2 mcm tu kalo tetiba ilang then muncul balik memang ak x ingt la n xnk ingt pun
hehehe..bagi ak org2 mcm ni dtg n pergi mcm tu je n xda pape effect dlm idup ak pun...


 bila ak baca balik entry2 lama aku..hmm mgimbau byk kenangan
kenangan pasal aku crush kat sum1 time sekolah dulu...
hmm kalo aku tau lpas aku brterus terang pe yg aku rasa kat dea n dea reject ak dgn sgt cepat akn wat idup ak bahagia mcm skang ni..hurmm dari dulu aku wat mcm tu..
biar kecewa dulu n bila dah lupakan dea...idup ak pun smakin ceria n bahagia
ad lagi org yg snggup beri perhatian kat aku...hmm happy n bahagia kot..
betul la org selalu kata..setiap bnda buruk tu msti ad hikmahnyer..
hehehehe
skang ak anggap yg ak penah suka dea tu adalah satu penglaman..penglaman yg byk sgt ajar aku..hehehe
skang memang dah lupa dah perasaan tu kat dea n anggap dea memang betul2 kawan aku je..
not more than that..hehehe


 hmm kepada kwn2..aku dah ready dah nak jumpa u all n terangkan pe yg jadi kat aku ni..
if korg nk dengar la..kalo xnk xpa..i just keep it for myself..
n aku rasa agak kesal gak n aku tau tu mgkin salah aku bila lama sgt menyendiri so bila nk cope ngn korang
aku x tau mcm mna nk wat bnda tu...ak dah rasa amat janggal n jauh sgt terkeluar dari group kiter..
hmm aku x salahkn korang n mngkin salah aku...tapi nak wat mcm mna before this emosi ak x stabil..
so aku just wat pe yg terbaek utk jaga emosi n hati aku..huhuhuhu


so sampai sini je la luahan rasa aku kali ni...
kalo ad lagi x puas ati n ak rasa nk citer,aku akan citer..hehehe
sampai bertemu kembali la ye...

as salam...n bye...

Sunday, April 1, 2012

manusia memang begitu

as salam sume..korang sihat2 x.??aku kat sini sihat2 je...alhamdulillah...
w/pun hati dan perasaan ni sakit sikit dgn beberapa peristiwa
tetapi aku kuat an semangat coz pe yg berlaku hanya sementara..
tu yang ak sentiasa pikir utk kurang an sakit..
hmm nasib bek ad org sekililing yg byk beri aku semangat
thanx u alls...

pe yg aku nk citer an actually ialah pasal ragam manusia iaitu aku sndiri sbnarnyer
hmm ye la ak sbg manusia bese an so dari pndang org len elok tgk diri tu dulu an
aku nk citer yg memang habit manusia x penah puas ati ngn keadaan diri tu
sentiasa je merungut ngn pe yg kiter xda n merungut gak dgn pe yg kiter ada

mcm aku ni..masa dulu2 merungut coz dah lama sgt single n tiba2 rasa nk berteman
heboh la mengadu kat blog aku ni an yg ak sunyi coz xda teman
tapi time tu memang aku sunyi ok..

but skang ni bila dah ad teman yg sudi bagi perhatian an
mula terpikir xnk couple2 ni
hati ni memang la suka ad org kasi perhatian kat kiter...sgt2 suka kot
cuma bila pikir lama2 rupanyer aku x ready lg utk bagi komitmen kpd sebuah hubungan
hmm dah lama sgt single ni n dah bese single so dah jadi seronok plak
x sanggup plak nak tinggal an life single ni
ceh ayat mcm la dlm masa terdekat ni nak tunang or kawen an
couple je kot...huhuhuhu

tapi tu la yg ak rasa sebenarnye..tunggu la lagi 5 tahun an
hah baru terbuka nk couple2 ni..kalo serasi bley la terus bertunang an..hehehe

so pe yg aku nk sampai an ialah as normal human being..kiter sntiasa merungut dgn kehidupan kiter...
bila xda pun merungut bila kiter ada sesuatu yg bernilai pun kiter merungut..
hehehe..mcm aku...

sekian dari saya yg comel {ceh perasan je..}
nur arina nadirah...

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

wah aku sukanyer...

hai friends...hope sihat sentiasa n happy sentiasa...
ak alhamdulillah sihat n happy la juga...hehehe
hmm aku nak citer something yg aku baru discover..hehehe
nak tau apa??hah ni la yg nk citer ni...

hmm nak tau..baru2 ni ak baru tau yg ak ska tgk kalo boys or guys drive..
suka tgk bila ak duk sbelah la time dorg drive tu...hehehe
bila dorg drive ak rsa or ak nmpak dorg ni macam menarik sgt2..
ak rsa dorg ni mcm macho je...
bila dorg drive tu ak rsa dorg mcm berani,melindungi n gentlemen la..
mcm dorg nak take care kiter la...
hmm mcm tu la aku rasa...
bley melt auw jantung ni...hehehe

so nasihat ak kepada dak laki...kalo nk pikat girls tolong la drive utk dorg..
sure2 dorg akan trjatuh cinta secara x langsung...hehehe
w/pun korg x hensem tp bila korg drive korg akn automatik jadi hensem..hehehe
so kna la pndai drive ok...hehehe

pape pun ak memang suka tgk guys drive..itu la realitinyer...hehehe

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

almost nk ilang suara

hola sume..
ari ni aku happy sangat2
aku gi karaoke n nyanyi puas2 sampai nk ilang anak tekak..hhuhu
hmm nak release tensionnyer pasal an..
aku nyanyi dari kul 8.30 until kul 12.00
hmm lama x...hehehe
dgn nyanyi ni aku ley express pe yg aku rsa n aku dpt lpakn segala msalah yg aku ada
seronok rasa macam wat konsert sndiri je
hehehe
hmm wat masa ni aku senang dgn keadaan mcm ni
time can heal rite
so let's follow the time n what will happen next...
i'am always smile.... :)

Friday, March 9, 2012

it's easier to say it than bear it

hmm skang aku dah lega sedikit
after wat beberapa perkara yg menenangkan
aku rasa more relax now..

hmm lupa lak ad sorang follow blog ak..huhuhu
thanx for your advice but you do not know what my mind are going thru
hmm ko penah rasa benda yg sama
but skang benda sama but different situation from what you had gone before
tapi it's ok n thanx for being understanding

hope ko x citer kat sesapa about this kat yg len
let it be a secret among the two of us ok
n enjoy your happy moment with others n have fun for my behalf
i tried to smile...k dun worry n i'm ok now...

Thursday, March 8, 2012

friends,hope you all understand me!!!


 salam kepada mereka yg membaca blog aku ni..
hmm pagi tadi ak dah update an
but skang rasa nak update lg la plak
hmm rasa nak kongsi sumthing plak
lucky me that ramai kenalan ak x tau pasal blog aku ni

hmm masalah ni aku dah citer kat 3 org yg ak rasa close ngn aku
but hanya sorg je yg paham keadaan aku,perasaan aku n sakit yg aku rasa
masalah aku sebenarnyer memang datang dari perasaan aku sendiri
i've tried very hard to control my emotions but it seems to fail
yela org kata byk bersabar n byk an doa
hmm aku sedang cuba muhasabah diri ni

tp wat masa ni aku dah letey utk berlakon depan korang
fake smile,fake happy face n fake jokes
sumenyer ak dah letey
aku tau tu bukan salah korang n korang x niat pun utk behave mcm tu dpn aku
tapi aku still xdpt nk buang rasa sakit ati n tersisih aku tu
aku tau tu sume rezeki korang n bukan rezeki ak utk bersama ngn korang
but korang tolong la paham n bagi aku masa utk accept sume ni

dalam masa terdekat ni memang aku rasa ak xley nk mix n hangout ngn korang
bukan salah korang tapi perasaan aku yg xbley berdepan dgn korang
yup aku tau kalo ak citer an masalah ak ni korang akan cuba utk pujuk ak dgn ayat seperti
"result ko ok je la,knp nk sedey2 plak" or "hmm pointer ko tinggi gak la n layak masuk U auw"
tapi kata2 korang tu nnti akan mmbuat an ak rasa korang mngejek aku
aku tau korang x mksudkn mcm tu,tp minda ak proses mcm tu
sesapa yg paham keadaan aku situasi aku sepanjang bersama ngn korang akan paham pe yg aku rasa

jalan terbaik bagi aku adalah stop seeing you guys for a moment
sampai la aku bley revive emosi n semangat aku...
hmm utk sambutan b'day ko,aku akan cuba utk turut serta
tapi ak x janji yg aku akan turut serta
sebab event 'celeberate' b'day ko ni sgt dekat dgn tarikh brmulanyer happiness korang
aku gembira utk korang cuma aku perlu buang cancer cemburu aku terhadap korang
hope korang bley paham...
tahniah lagi sekali n hope jumpa nanti bila aku rasa aku sudah bersedia

lucky me i can act

hai sume..ak rsa dah berhabuk dah blog ak ni
mlas nak update je w/pun masa byk gler
hmm ak byk hbis an msa ngn fb n tgk youtube je pas habis sekolah ni
huhuhu nak keje parents ak x kasi,so dok umah jd anak dara mithali la..hehehe

smlm an ak dapat result stpm..
hmm quite ok but little bit dissappoited cause not achive what i target
but redha je la n cover it with my smile that as sweet as candy..
lucky me that i can act naturally...hehehe
to all my classmate congrats to all of you cause u achive what u want
n sorry if u all will rarely see me in the future
because i need sometime to adjust myself to fit in with you guys again
hope u all will understand

and those who achive higher pointer than me
i hope n please don't congrats me
it is because its like u all make fun of me
don't understand,try to think that u all in my place
than u will understand

hope with my result i can further my studies
hmm i think i want further it in psychology n in UKM
hope they will accept me
i don't want to be dissapoint again in the future...huhuhu
but kalo xdpt UKM pun,dpt masuk U pun jadi la..huhuhu

ok that's all for today..
we'll meet sooner or later..bye..

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

sedang belajar

orang kata menerima dan belajar utk menyanyangi orang yg syg kan kiter
lebey baik dari mengharapkan kasih dari orang yg sgt2 kiter sayang
ini kerana orang yg sgt sayangkan kiter x mudah tinggalkan kiter
berbanding dengan orang yg kiter sayang tapi orang tu sikit pun xda rasa sayang pada kiter

aku rasa ada kebenaran dari kata2 tu
orang yg syg kiter sgt2 mesti akan berusaha utk bahagiakan kiter
so knp perlu mengharapkan orang yg xtau hargai sayang kiter kat dea an
pengalaman yang ajar aku...hehehe

ini kerana mulai hari ini aku sedang cuba belajar menerima seseorang yg betul2 sayangkan aku
aku yakin yg dea akan bahagiakan aku
dan masa akan membuatkan aku jatuh sayang kat dea
untuk apa aku seksa jiwa mengharapkan orang yg xtau hargai sayang aku
try think about your happiness first

apa yg penting sekarang adalah move forward
hmm jgn pikir bnda yg dah lepas
jangan sedey kalo sayang kiter x bersambut
sebab mesti ad someone utk kiter nanti
dan hidup ni ibarat roda 
so dea akan rasa jugak apa yg kiter rasa
so jgn sedey2 n enjoy our life dgn org yg sygkn kiter


Saturday, January 28, 2012

ada sumthing nak bagitau

hmm nanti bila keadaan dah mengizinkn baru ak bagitau
hmm tunggu je la eh...huhuhuhu
aku x berniat pun nak wat hubungan jadi renggang mcm ni
hmm hope hal ini dapat di selesaikan la dgn cara baik
aku x terasa ati or sakit hati pun n aku memahaminyer

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

fantasi je sume tu



salam n hai sume..
aku nak citer pasal buku2 novel yg ak baca
hmm lately ni aku tetiba minat giler nk baca novel
ye la nama pun cuti panjang an so memang byk la masa terbazir
hehehehe
so ak bazir an masa ngn baca novel je la
nak mengon9 kadang2 bosan je..xtau nk wat pe kat dlm fb tu
so baca novel lg best an..hehehe bleh berangan...

tapi an yg x bestnyer an kbnykn novel yg ak dah baca ni citernyer klise je
ye la citernyer an hero citer tu mesti anak org kaya..
x anak tan sri, mesti anak dato' x anak dato' pun bapak dea mesti kaya giler la
ada syarikat besar2,rumah besar2 kreta pun besar2...

yang heroin nyer mesti la miskin xpun sederhana je
anak yatim ke xpun anak angkat ke
kira nasib heroin ni agak2 nk malang je
pastu dtg la si hero yg kaya raya menyelamatkan gadis pujaannyer
huhuhu

mcm tu la citer yg ak slalu baca kat novel
xpun drama2 yg di tayang an kat tv
skang ni ak tgk byk sgt drama or novel bertema an kawen tanpa cinta
hmm kawen sbb trpaksa la,kawen kontrak la..yg pnting xda cinta la
pastu dah nama pun dah kawen dok sebilik an mesti la jatuh cinta gak
akhirnyer bahagia

hmm ak tau byk penulis wat citer tema mcm ni coz ramai pmbaca yg ska berfantasi tinggi2
ye la fantasi nk dpt suami romantik+kaya+hensem lagi
mcm tu la pnulis2 novel ni gmbar an heronyer
hmm org yg baca novel mcm ak ni suka la baca n bayang an untungnyer dpt laki mcm tu
hehehe

tapi an dlm realitinyer mana ada kiter bleh dpt an sume tu
kalo rezeki dpt la ko suami hensem+kaya+romantik
kalo x bese2 je la an
w/mcm mna pun ak tetap ska baca novel
ye la kalo xdpt,fantasi je pun dah cukup

kadang2 ak byg an org yg ak betul2 syg msa baca novel tu

ye la w/pun kriteria yg dgmbar an pnulis tu ak rsa x sma ngn sum1 tu
but ska ati aku la kan fantasi aku
sesapa ak nk bayang an ak punyer suka la an..hehehehe
tapi baca novel ni bley blajar mcm2 about cinta auw
hmm seronok la baca coz dpt tmbh ilmu about cinta
hehehehehe

hmm ok la tu je ak rasa nak tulis..k salam n bye2...

Thursday, January 12, 2012

problem solve but i still wonder!!


ok ak rs masalah ak dah selesai
but aku still wonder
tp lupa plak la nk tanya an pe yg ak wonder an tu
kalo ak xda wat pape salah 
knp dea mcm avoid ak je..huhuhu
mula2 memang aku rsa maybe perasaan aku je kot
but there once incident that make me sure that what i felt was true
so apa puncanyer dea mcm tu eh
hmm so aku still xtau lagi
nak tanya ke??
hmm xpayah la aku rasa
coz kalo dea selesa mcm tu
biarkan je la mcm tu

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

hangout n problem

hari ni aku hangout ngn kwn2 aku..
hangout gi mana..gi tesco seremban jaya je.
hmm aku ni xpernah lagi jejak kaki kat tesco seremban jaya ni..
so nk kata jakun tu xda la...
bukan beli pape pun..
just jalan2 je kat dlm tesco tu sambil bergosip ngn kawan aku
hehehe


hari ni aku dah bagitau satu rahsia besar kat kwn aku si AIDA
hmm si comel manis tu...hmm xtau knp ngn dea aku rasa ak leh bgtau rahsia ni...
mungkin aku senang dgn sikap dea yg happening tu..
masa mula2 bgtau dea memang terkejut but after aku citer 1 persatu dea relax je..
and dea pun memahami keadaan aku...
tadi ada gak kena marah ngn dea but pndirian aku an,so dea pun xleh nk wat pe..
hehehe
sorry ye AIDA...



hmm skang ni aku kena selesai an 1 lg masalah
hmm xkn la slamanyer nk wat bodoh n mcm x knl je kan each time jumpa
memang la skang ni x slalu jumpa but kadang2 tu jumpa la gak an
so aku nak selesai an masalah ini supaya pada masa akan datang xda la rasa mcm org bisu je bila jumpa an
hehehe
aku xtau punca masalah ini dari mana yg aku tau aku kena selesaiknnyer
benda2 remeh or hurt2 feeling ni tolak tepi...


hmm aku juga nak ucap an tahniah kat aida coz dah jumpa buah hati
hmm untung la ko dah jumpa sumone yg syg an ko
aku ni dah jumpa org yg aku syg cuma xtau la dea syg an aku gak ke x..
hmm sdey2..
ok ahad nnt aku akan bagi nasihat kaw2 kat ko..
hehehe diri sndiri ngn perasaan sndiri pun mcm hancuss
ni kan nk bagi nasihat kat org...huhuhu
xpa la aku ni a lots of experience tau...
hehehe puji dri sndiri plak...


hmm kepada ko yg aku syg...selamat malam....n sweet dream..hehehe

Sunday, January 8, 2012

mimpi

hai sume-sume yg mengenali aku...
sihat-sihat ke korang sume
aku sihat je n bertambah sihat auw..
hehehehe

hari ni aku gi swimming auw...
hmm seronok sgt dpt berenang
dah lama aku x rasa tenang n berenang ni memang wat aku tenang betul
aku suka bila float an diri aku n pandang langit kat atas
hmm cantik tgk awan berarak pergi..
cantik sungguh ciptaan TUHAN an..

sedang aku pandang awan tu aku terpikir about my dream
dah 3 malam berturut aku mimpi pasal aku sakit
sakit apa??aku dapat kanser
kanser apa??kanser perut
hmm begitu detail mimpi aku tu an
n mimpi tu seems like real
aku pun xtau knp aku mimpi mcm tu
huhuhu

dlm mimpi tu org pertama yg tau aku sakit akak aku
coz aku gi medical check up ngn dia
at 1st ak xnk bgtau parents aku but bnda serius an mana leh sorok
so bgtau jugak..
hmm dlm mimpi tu kanser aku baru peringkat kedua
still bleh cure lg
but bila dah dpt kanser an korang mesti miserable n rasa mcm dunia korang dah berakhir
mcm tu la aku rasa dlm mimpi tu

dlm mimpi tu yg tau pasal sakit aku family je
aku xbgtau kwn2 aku pun
ye la mimpi aku tu mimpi pada masa sekarang
n waktu skang kan aku jarang jumpa kwn2 aku
so xyah la bgtau dorang..belum serius pun..

mcm tu la mimpi aku
n 3 mlm aku mimpi benda yg sama iaitu aku baru balik check up n dpt tau kena kanser
tu je yg mimpi aku repeat..
repeat mcm mna aku tau aku sakit,repeat mcm mna parents aku tau aku sakit n repeat mcm mna keadaan aku time aku tau aku sakit..

aku rasa aku pikir an sgt keadaan kwn akak aku
kwn akak aku ada kanser n baru je ari tu dea dtg umah ak
nk habis an masa ngn akak aku
so aku rs sbb tu la aku smpai termimpi yg aku ada kanser
aku terpikir sekiranya aku kat tempat dia mcm mna la keadaan aku
coz ari tu dea ada kol akak ak n dea kata kanser dea dah makin merebak
seram sejuk aku dengar..sebab tu la smpai termimpi kot

aku harap ini sumenyer hanyalah mimpi sahaja...
tapi sekiranyer ia benar2 terjadi
aku anggap itu sebagai anugerah ALLAH
sebab ALLAH sygkan aku sebab tu DIA bagi dugaan mcm tu kat aku
n DIA nk mengingatkn aku kpd kematian..
aku redha dgn ketentuan DIA andai itu yang terjadi

Saturday, January 7, 2012

happy birthday mom..


6/1/2012...
hari ni adalah b'day my mom yg ke 50
hmm smakin lama smakin mningkat umor kita an
hmm for my mom b'day thun ni aku xbagi pape pun
ye la aku ni belum mmpunyai pndptn tetap lg
nak beli pape pun kadang2 claim ngn my dad gak...
huhuuhu

smbut b'day my mom xda la meriah pun
just gather whole family n gi mkn besar sikit
pe lagi gi mkn ikan 3 rasa la...hmm sedapnyer...
kek plak abg aku beli kat secret recipe..
tu pun beli 2 slice je...family aku ni bukannyer mkn sgt kek2 ni..
hmm pape pun aku tgk my mom happy la
kitorg pun happy smbut together ngn my mom..
pasni b'day aku plak..hehehe
rasanyer tahun ni pun xdpt present gak...huhuhu

pape pun SELAMAT HARI LAHIR KEPADA IBU TERCINTA RAMLAH BINTI PIEE..